Sex Deprivation Blues

Sometimes I make mistakes....
I've learned at this point in my life that being sex deprived for extended periods of time can make a girl crazy. So I'm going through a pretty terrible dry run as you might call it. It's been almost a year since the last time I've had sex and it makes me depressed sometimes. I find myself lost in a world people constantly having sex and I'm almost willing to suffer the experience of horrible sex just to be included. At least that's they way it happens in my dreams. I've started dreaming about sex a lot. The best or maybe the worst part is that my dream sex is pretty damn amazing lol.

But seriously. I've reached the point where I might just go to the bar and pick up some random guy at the bar and take him home. That's probably not the best strategy for fixing my little problem but its the best I got as of right now it seems.

I'm not really sure the purpose of this post except to just try and let out some of my aches and pains so that maybe it won't be as bad anymore. Who really knows.

LOVE LOVE LOVE
Meggie

30 Day Truth Challenge: Day 14

A hero that has let you down. (letter)
I've spent a lot of my life being let down by everyone around me. I don't really know if there's a particular hero who has ever let me down. I think the problem with this is that I try to avoid identifying anyone as a hero because that makes it so easy for them to set me up for failure. For a long time I idolized Whitney Houston but then her life became about her being a weak bitch in an abusive relationship and lets not forget all of the drugs. I mean no offense to any other Whitney Houston lovers out there because I love her music so much and I will love her music until the day that I die. 

This post is pretty short. I don't really like this day of the truth challenge so that's all I really got. 

30 Day Truth Challenge: Day 13

A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

So, apparently I'm writing a letter to a band or artist. Uhhhh. I guess I'll write my letter to Eminem because he's probably the artist I turn to when I'm having a seriously shitty day. 

Dear Marshall Mathers (a.k.a. Eminem)

I think it's important to use your proper name when writing you a letter but who knows. I think I would like to just let you know how much I appreciate your music. Some have labelled you as the God of metaphors. I find this to be a truth. I don't think I could look to any other artist to find a metaphor that sums up any type of emotional feeling I have. I find you to be a truly inspirational artist because you've proven that white people can find a deep relationship to hip - hop and you don't necessarily need the black experience to make great music. I discovered your music when I was in the 5th grade I believe. I started listening to "I just don't give a fuck" and although I couldn't really relate to the words in the song as such a young kid but I certainly used this song and many others as an inspiration to not care about the kids in school who would bully me for being different. It was my philosophy about the things people would say about me. It taught me not to be responsive or care about all of the impermanent people in my life because one day I would find real people I can relate to and who will care about me. 

I don't really know where I was going with this. I guess that's what I get for stopping and starting a blog post. That's all. 

Love, 
Meggie